I'm Savoring It

So this is it; I'm taking the moment to absorb my very state of being before I take the plunge, the plunge of reality and what I've been prepared for since at least 7th grade.

I remember that very moment, where someone came into my classroom and started talking about the importance of grades for college acceptance and future careers. I thought at the time, "This is so crazy that they're telling us this when we still have 10 years to being real adults!" And yet look at me now, I still feel like I'm that same child in 7th grade. I've grown a lot, learned a lot and made a few great friends along the way, but I'm still making my way through that path that seems to change almost every hour of every day.

Today, I agonized about how I wanted to decorate my cap. Silly, right? But it did mean a lot to me. I hope my parents like it. I even took the care to wear a certain dress for graduation that my mom absolutely loved and bought for me 3 years ago. Never did I have the chance to wear it; it's just short of a wedding dress so until that special event, I figured graduation was the best chance I had to wearing it.

My shoes? The colorful ones. I don't know why, but everything about graduation seems have become this...big deal. I wasn't really thinking about what to wear or what to say on the day, but being surrounded by everyone talking and questioning has got me going. I have my dress, shoes, and cap ready to go but...where am I going?

I just don't want to be a disappointment and that idea is truly one of my biggest fears. Mom, Dad, I hope I can make you all proud.

So in 14 hours, I will be sitting with my class of Sixth College for the last time. I have such a hard time with finality and I hope I don't get too teary. I just want to enjoy tomorrow...er, today. Okay, I better get some rest...the big day is already today.