Happy, Healthy Lifestyle?

Lately, I've been trying this thing about taking care of myself and "making myself happy" instead of "trying to make everyone happy" because it seems I can't do everything (lies!). I'm not going to lie and say I'm a saint in wanting to make everyone happy, but I definitely can't seem to make myself happy and I don't know why. And I can't make anyone else happy unless I'm happy myself, right? So the pursuit of happiness in selfish terms should allow me to spread my joy unselfishly, right? I hope so, because it's kind of tricky in defining what actually makes me happy. Am I doing it because I think it SHOULD make me happy, or does it just make me feel justified? Justified just isn't as satisfying as happy. It's like I'm craving something, but is it hunger? Thirst? And if I'm thirsty, do I want water, milk, juice, what kind of juice? Or maybe I need to regurgitate instead because I consumed too much of something that upsets my lifestyle. It's like alcohol, where you think that you need to consume copious amounts of it to have fun and be happy, when really it just tastes terrible and gives you a nasty hangover...you just gotta yak it up or avoid it in excess or altogether.

So which is it? What am I craving and what variation do I want? Did I drink too much poison and need to yak it all up? ...have I been living in one long hangover?